Name:Rivali Dass
Age:16 :)
Birthday: 5th Oct '92
Class:1D '05, 2e '06 <33,3e '07, 4e '08
School: MGS
I <3: Family, My dogs, 2e, 4e, MORONS, painting, designing, writing weird stories, being generally weird, unsettling people...
Note: This is a horribly emo post i wrote about 2 weeks ago. Posted it for the sake of posting it. I'm working on another post RIGHT NOW though. :)
Hi. It's almost four in the morning and guess what I'm doing? Social Studies homework.
Call me disorganized and irresponsible?
I was studying for a freakin Chem test before this. Where no one knows exactly what chapters to study, or even whether the goddamned thing is really tomorrow, or on thursday. I returned home at 7.30 p.m after tennis CCA, and almost immediately got to work. I was not even slacking or anything. So I had finished studying mole concept by yesterday, (I quote Mrs. Lim: "The quiz will be on mole concept.") and thought that I'd just revise through the shit today you know? But nooooo. Suddenly, some people start saying that titration and chapters 8 and 10 are also being included in the bloody test. I mean, thats connected to mole concept, but you really couldn't say it WAS the mole concept. So, trying to be responsible and all, I decide to study the other f*cking chapters, and all that crap. Not only that, we do. not. have. any. chem. period. tomorrow. So nobody effing knows whether Mrs. Lim is gonna exchange another period for chem, or whether she made a mistake with the test day.
THAT F-CKING TEST BETTER BE TOMORROW- OR TODAY MORE LIKE, BECAUSE ITS FOUR IN THE MORNING- AFTER ALL THE BLOODY FORMULAS I'VE BEEN MEMORISING TODAY.
Not only that, we have- yippee!- more damn tests. tuesday was lit, wednesday is chem (it better be), thursday in english and friday is social studies. And since there's nothing much to study for for English i thought that i could use wednesday to work on my groups Geog project (which hasnt gotten very far btw). BUT NOPE.
That frickin ______________. WTF's wrong with her okay. She's the new (INSERT cca) coach, just some horrible replacement for Karen, who could actually act. She makes us lie down and breathe and do weird yogic poses for three-quarters of the lesson. Then, at 4.15, 15 mins before drama is about to end, she starts finally making us act and stuff (may i mention the stuff she tells us to do is total crap) and keeps us until 5.
Like, excuse me, people have a life, unlike you. They have places to go to and things to do. They dont need to stare at your face any longer than they have to if they dont want to. And she's made us stay from 2:30 to 6:30 tomorrow. By the time i reach home it will be almos 8 o clock.
I feel like grabbing that OBVIOUSLY PERMED FAKE FRIZZY HAIR OF HERS, SWINGING HER AROUND UNTIL SHE'S GONNA PUKE, THEN KICKING HER (with Meera and Su-lyn's help) ALL THE WAY ACROSS THE SCHOOL SO THAT SHE LANDS RIGHT NEXT TO WHOEVER IT WAS WHO HIRED HER IN THE FIRST F*CKING PLACE. THEN AS SHE SWAYS DIZZILY, JUST ABOUT TO PUKE, I HOPE SHE TURNS AROUND AND BARFS ALL OVER THE PERSON WHO HIRED HER IN THE FIRST PLACE AND THEN SHE DIES AND ROTS IN HELL FOR THE REST OF MISERABLE ETERNITY.
I am sick and tired of this shit okay. Not only that, I realised that since I'm not taking a certain subject (which I very stupidly chose not to take because I was afraid of people's reactions and because people told me i would end up in a bimbo class- which is not true- and because my parents were dead against me considering it) i won't have an O-level qualification for that subject, which means I wont be able to take it in JC, which means I won't have an A-level grade in the subject which means that it'll be very hard to apply for a uni degree in that area which means that my dream job for the last ten years has just gone down the drain which means I might as well kill myself right now if I dont die of exhaustion first. (The LTTE and GOSL and those Sri Lankans can rot in hell for all i care) And the worst thing? As Amrit never fails to remind me, its all my fault. I should not have listened to people when it came to making my subject choice. I should have followed by own interests. And when I had a chance of sort of attending those classes, I should not have gone with people who spent the whole time making fun of everything and breaking my eraser into half.
I should try even harder to achieve what I want to achieve, which is hard when you have screwed up people making you stay in school to breathe and do yoga instead of drama, and unreliable people who cant even tell us test dates.
I know this has been a long, fricking emo post but come to think about it, i was unresponsible and totally didnt passup any work in Sec 2. I had a much more fun life and miraculously did even better than all the shit marks im getting now. Maybe i should stop passing up maths hw again. :) Joking. Anyway, I gtg back to the SS essay (which is actually quite interesting save for the fact that I'm doing it at 4 in the morning).
Rivali
Note: Wow.. Reading through it, I can't believe I was this depressed. Actually, reading this is reminding me about all the horrible things in my life right now, so I better go before I get pissed off again. :)
YShe laughed. And laughed. And laughed yet again.;;
