Name:Rivali Dass
Age:16 :)
Birthday: 5th Oct '92
Class:1D '05, 2e '06 <33,3e '07, 4e '08
School: MGS
I <3: Family, My dogs, 2e, 4e, MORONS, painting, designing, writing weird stories, being generally weird, unsettling people...
The last week has been a total emotional rollercoaster. I'm so so SO happy that everything's been cleared up.
Since late Monday night (or reeeaaallly early on Tuesday morning) I've been really really upset. I just didn't know what to do. A couple of smses just....turned my life upside down you know?
You know, different people have different things which mean alot to them in life. For some people its their career, for some its money.
For me, its the people close to me, like friends. Thats why this blog, right? All the crazy stuff me and my friends do in school and all. (Forget about the weird teachers just for now) So obviously when it seemed I was losing one of my really good friends, i was affected.
In school, I put up this I-don't-really-care,-if-she-could-do-this-then-its-better-that-we're-not-friends facade. But i used to come home and be really depressed and even cry because I just could not understand why how we could be such good friends last year, and just suddenly everything would get destroyed like that.
And there were lots of times when I'd pick up my phone to sms or call her, and then put it back down again thinking 'what if she doeesn't wanna talk? what if she tells me to just be friends with the people in my class?' and I just walked away from that phone. And I cried.
I think this week Hilary saw me stoning in class alot. Even Mrs. Tee was like "Reevaaalieee? Are you with us? I see this glazed look in you eyes.." and I was just thinking about all the stuff, you know?
I spoke to a few people about it, and they really helped me, cuz I was just so lost.
So, thanks Naomi, Yanka, Bat, Daphne, Amrit, and Su-lyn! Even Ling and Ting. Thanks for listening to me, and giving advice and reassurances, and sticking up for me. You guys really helped. <33333
Then, last night while I'm out, I get an sms. Its from her. My initial reaction was "omg, i didn't even talk to her this whole week, how can she be angry??"
then I opened the sms.
she said she was sorry, and that she had called my house, but i was out.
and asked me if i would, could I give her a call?
I was so relieved that I just stood there, in the middle of the party, looking at my phone.
Then, I smsed her back. What time is the latest I can call?
Anyway, I called her when I got home, at 11?
It was like,
"Hello?" "Hello.....Rivali?" "Sarah?"
then she started crying, and I started crying too. And we talked about loads and loads of stuff. We realized that we had both been too scared to approach the other. I found out that she had not been ignoring me, she just didn't know what to say. I found out that she too had been wondering if she should call, just like I had. I found out lots of things, and I'm really happy she even smsed and I'm happy that I replied instead of ignoring it.
Then the convo gradually shifted to 3g and 3e and 2e and teachers and all. Like, what? Banana-bombs and head prefects and Esty's boyfriends. It felt so good just to talk. :)
And I just wanna thank the people who listened to me when I was down. I love you guys! I love you Salad!
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YShe laughed. And laughed. And laughed yet again.;;